U know those nites when u can't sleep and when u close yer eyes, images start floating around like a movie acting out right before yer eyes? Today's one of those nites. I'm tired but i can't get to sleep. Kept thinking and rethinking bout last nite, trying to recall what was it i said, but to no avail.
Alcohol really screws u over sometimes. When i have too much to drink, it seems as tho i become a whole other person. I become chattier, and totally unconscious bout my behaviour. I become Miss PR of the year with no prohibitions and never once do i think of consequences when i'm fucked. 'Cept tht there's always consequences. Sometimes i wonder if its becoz im sucha "principled", careful person in my un-drunk state tht all hell breaks loose when my evil twin takes over whenever situation permits.
Mannnnnn! This sucks big time! Totally quitting alcohol would be pretty darn impossible. Life is already as boring as can be. Without the occasional alcohol would be not living at all. I gotta regain control of myself. Gotta start managing my high again. 3 consecutive weeks of memory loss is really no fun at all! I'm always the sober one so please can someone tell me what's happening to me! :(
I hate not remembering what i said! Hate hate hate hate hate! HATEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
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