Word Vomit.

I first heard this term in "Mean Girls". Word vomit occurs when one starts babbling and spews words tht was never meant to be spewed out. And once what's said's been said, one can never retract those words. And tht's when guilt and regret will come take u for a ride.

Ever since my explosive nature has taken a back seat, I haven't really said things to intentionally hurt anyone for awhile. And then yesterday nite happened. The supposedly dormant volcano in me underwent a mini explosion. I have no idea if it's the stress from all the work i'm supposed to finish or had i been imploding so much over the days tht some negativity had to be released. And yes, i feel bad. In fact, i started feeling bad bout 2hrs after the mini explosion. I'm retarded like tht sometimes.

Friends.. Probably the second most important group of people in most peoples' lives. Maybe i'm still living in my idealistic world but to me, friends do not bitch bout each other. Friends should not resort to name calling but instead discuss bout whatever unhappiness pleasantly and peacefully and sort things out there and then. Friends will be there to lend a hand or a listening ear whenever one is needed. Friends should not make friends feel uncomfortable on their birthdays.

Hell man! I'm not perfect. I'm as flawed as anyone in this world is. I'm not the most thoughtful person this world has seen. But if any of my friends ever need help, they should all know tht i'll be there. I'll be there to listen and i'll be there to beat up whoever they need to beat up. Tht's the way i show i care. I'm not into saying mushy things all the time. I'm so not the mushy things type of person. I'm just the type of friend who will be there. I'll always try to be there whenever anyone i call my friend needs help, no matter what time is it or where they are. If tht's not being a good enough friend then so be it.

For now, i'm just gonna leave everything as it is. Just let the guilt trip run its course and let the matter rest for awhile. Too many things i needa get done now and i've got no more strength to ponder and harp on issues tht i cannot single-handedly solve.